Yawn
March 25, 2010I don’t want to end up like Guido Contini. Sleepless, and craving for something yet unable to give something in return.
emopsychostar (no) more.
February 23, 2010I would like to change EMOPSYCHOSTAR with something else less adapting from the previous blog family I used to be with (Emopsychostar dot com) but at the same time, I’d like to remain with the current setting and dashboard in which I do not have to start a total new blog, nor changing to a new free blog host.
Does anyone have any ideas or tips on this?
3rd year UTI
February 13, 2010New job is awesome. Not until I discovered the same sickness visiting me. This time, it got worse.
So I’ve had UTI since 2007. It hit me 1st time in Feb 2007, twice in 2008 and twice in 2009.
Monday 5th is the 1st UTI in 2010. It’s not fun,please. I just need to quit this habit of holding my pee so much.
Here’s a review on what UTI is all about.
I first got Urinary Tract Infection, or better known as UTI in Feb 2007. I woke up at 3am, with a very painful urge to urinate. I did not understand the pain that I cried every time I run to the toilet. It became horrifying for me especially when I saw my urine turn into red pigment.
Since I could not sit nor move around so much, I went online standing up and searched for “blood urinating” on Wikipedia.
I was so shocked to find that there is such thing as “bleeding pee”. The only thing running on my mind was either I have cervical cancer (in which I searched as well), and the other thing was “death”. I went to a good doctor whom gave me sorts of medication. She advised me to drink loads of water, drink barley and 100 Plus (for glucose content).
However, the sickness still come around from time to time in 2008,2009.. and now in Feb 2010 marks the 3rd year for me to have UTI visiting me.
The only thing I know is, my bad habit is the main cause of this sickness which is holding my pee.
So girls and guys, don’t hold your pee and drink less water.
Don’t end up like me. Take care and have a healthy CNY.
Flykisses.
Every “Hello” ends with a “Goodbye”
February 4, 2010Finally I wrote a farewell email to the whole company.
When I wrote that email, as I click “send” I was quite nervous. There was an emotional rush panicking in my blood that divides my emotion on whether or not I was ready to leave this company.
Two years working here was probably the highlight of my life. There were ups and downs. Come to think about it, I actually loved my job here. I will miss it dearly and I will those people I have worked with.
I’ll miss you guys but like I said, every “Hello” ends with a “Good Bye”.
Ok. Back to packing up my cubicle.
Tali Tenang (post-mortem)
January 24, 2010I must admit, I have been angry with any other current issues going on in Malaysia. But someone came up to me and said, ” why don’t you do something about it rather than venting about how angry you are? Why don’t you look at yourself first before you talk about others?”. These words are probably harsh and straight forward, but they really make sense if you really think about it.
We have been ranting and blogging about how shitty the country has been. Whether or not we have affective politicians or government but have we actually done anything at all?
Being a part of RA and co-organizing it with the team has taught me how we can show others what we have always wanted for this country and it doesn’t have to be writing or talking about it, but to have actions. These actions DO NOT have to be violence or strikes. It can be as simple as walking down the town with a long rope with Malaysian flags and show how positively inviting it can turn out to be.
For those who came and participated in Tali Tenang;be it as crews, photographers, videographers or parcitipants, I hope everyone learned how awesome it is to realize how we can stick together to show how calm we are and how much we care about being in a peaceful, wonderful Malaysia.
More to come from RA, Malaysia!
+ Tali Tenang on The Star
+ Tali Tenang on Twitter
Why I’m not a politician.
January 11, 2010One of the main subjects I took for my American High School Diploma was Politics & Culture. It was also my all-time favorite subject.My father has asked me to take up Political Science in university. As a diplomat,he has trained me to become as diplomatic as I can be, taught me what diplomacy is and how to do a proper PR when I meet certain people with different level and acknowledgment.
..but I refused to take Political Science. Reason being, every time I go for my 3 hours mock UN debate after school activity, or whenever I go on a UN Debate trip to The Hague, I will come home a depressed 17,18 year old.
Politics & Culture is such a wonderful subject because it gives me the freedom to learn how beautiful or ugly the world is by fact, or by case studies. What makes it even more interesting is that it consist about 14 people in a class, from a different range of students from different background through race, culture, religion, etc. It was such a colorful class and a wonderful one.
So I took up Tourism Management instead.Because I love learning cultures and languages. and I dislike discrimination, racism, and wars.
I wish politics is more like learning Tourism Management. And I wish Malaysia is like that.
update up-to-date.
January 7, 20101. All four of my car tyres were stolen yesterday morning. Refer to my twit photo for clearer view and understanding.
a. I wish the thieves nothing but to die in hell.
b. I hope the local policemen really keep to what they’ve promised – to take actions.
c. I spent RM1k++ to get new tyres. Pfft.
d. Total lost value = RM2k++.
e. Lesson learned = get your apartment parking sticker and NEVER park outside your apartment area! EVER!
2. The 1st level of my new year resolution is about to happen.
a. *pray*
b. We’ll see where this goes.
c. I’m so ready to let go!
3. I do not believe in what you expect me to believe so stop forcing me to believe it!
a. That was actually a personal shout out to someone I know.
b. Seriously, I’m not joking. It’s not for you. It’s for that someone I know.
Au Revoir
January 1, 2010They say, ” we don’t party much now because age is catching up” . That worries me, you know.
Because to end 2009 means stepping into another year where we will definitely turn another year older. I don’t want to get there yet. I was sipping on my Ginger Ale last night, while the live band sang Volare song, and I tried to capture each and every moment I can to remind myself that this is the last of it for this year. Each kisses and hugs I get, each smiles given to me, each SMS received,each drinks poured for me , each sip. That will be the last of it this year.
However, I looked at each one of my boyfriend’s friends and my friends, I turned and looked at him again, and I know someday I will definitely miss such moment. It will be the last of it this year.
But stepping onto 2010 has given me more strength to think of the changes I’m going to do. Everything, for the best of me if it’s not for anyone else.
As for now, I’m greatful for everything that has happened to me in 2009. Here’s to 2010 !
The End is No End (Bye 2009 Hi 2010)
December 28, 2009So I’d like to write another year-end blog post but I have just been busy.
Turning back and reviewing this year, I have experienced a further detail meaning of depression,stress,and adulthood. I turned 25 this year and had my first car accident with SagaBabe, which I finally named after numerous times naming it ( I started with Megan but decided that it’s a national car hence it doesn’t deserve to be called Megan but SagaBabe).I traveled domestic for a number of times, and have been as broke as a joke. I have also experienced prank calls,dealing with psychotic communications with psychotic minds, dealing with the cops several of times, reporting about phone call abuse and visual sexual abuses. Through out this year, I have also experienced physical pain, emotional pain, work pain, everything. The worse part is losing my faith which I am slowly regaining towards the end of the year, thinking that we can never cheat death.
2009 has been quite a tiring year. Nothing significantly happy except for the success of any campaigns done for one of the brands I take care of though even that is unsatisfying to most eyes. This year I have also experienced being caught in a situation of being courted by a man whom I never knew of and whom only had guts to call my parents in which turns me off completely since waiting for his phone call to show his manly side towards me for having the balls to court me via my parents has yet to happen. So if he reads this I hope he understands that regardless if I am really single or not, I am not going to accept such man (e.g: You) to have such chance in owning me. No one owns me but God. That’s what I have decided this year.
I have been living an angry life through 2009. All I did was to keep in inside or vent it out by the bar of TGIF to familiar faces. And when I feel like it, I’ll break down and cry alone or to some stranger in my own world, before I go to sleep. This year is the year my best friend(s) found happiness. One whom is engaged to her boyfriend and another one started to live under one roof with the girl he loves.
Truth is, 2009 was a good training year for me to move on to 2010.
I wish for nothing but the best in 2010.
I am looking forward for better days, better place, better life in 2010. Wish list will be edited.
Thank you,and Happy New Year.
